Saturday, December 24, 2011

READY AND WAITING

Even as a child, I knew,
I was going to hell,
so every night
I prepared,
drew the bathwater
a little bit hotter
than the night before
and let it burn my skin
just a little bit redder
a little bit more painful,
pretending I was mining coal
or building a railroad
in hell
until finally
anything under 200 degrees
felt like ice on my skin,
and spending eternity in flames
didn't seem like such a bad idea.

Friday, December 23, 2011

It will feel good to burn in the fire
(help me on my way to hell)

It's impossible that you're alive
they all said
after the accident
that left me impaled
by (something)
through the chest
which should have left me dead

but I stood up and pulled it out
because (something)
doesn't hurt
doesn't make me bleed
doesn't leave anything behind except another hole
and the mysterious ashes
that make up the insides.

When the footage was broadcast on the evening news,
authorities were knocking on my door.
I showed them the hole,
they prodded and nudged the ashes with their batons.
It's impossible that you're alive,
they all said,
come with us.

Did I put up a struggle?
I don't believe so. I fell asleep
and when I woke up
the nurses were scared
It's impossible that you're alive,
they all said,
and began to describe my internal anatomy.

When did it catch on fire? They wanted to know.
My insides had been burnt and burnt again,
the ashes were piling up in layers,
they would soon kill me.
No, I told them. No.
It is the ashes that saved my life.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

DONATE TO MY LAZER EYES FUND

I have broken every pair of glasses I have ever had.
I am kindly asking you to donate money on paypal to me at lilyyydawn@gmail.com.
Any large (or small) amount will be greatly appreciated.
I am sick of wasting money on my broken glasses.
Here is a montage of my glasses.
BROKEN

BROKEN BY HANDS

BROKEN AT SHOW

BROKE THESE RIGHT AFTER I GOT THEM

LOST/STOLEN

CHEWED BY DOG

FELL APART
IF I GET LAZER EYES I WILL NOT HAVE TO BUY OR WEAR GLASSES ANYMORE.
PLEASE SEND SOME LUV.
<3 <3